Charlie is one who keeps his feelings inside until one day they burst out of Charlie. Most of the time this is when Charlie and I are by ourselves and at night right before we go to bed. I love our heart to heart talks but there is times I need to talk to David about what Charlie has told me.

I have to break my confidence to Charlie which I hate. I’m afraid this will keep Charlie from confiding in me but I Pray that doesn’t happen because I always want Charlie to tell me anything bothering him.

Last night Charlie climbed on the couch with me and got under my blanket and I could tell there was something on his mind. As we settled down Charlie said mom can’t I go to Homeschool I learn much more at home than I do at school.

I told Charlie I understood he is scared about going into Middle School and that he will not be able to keep up. I told Charlie I wished he had talked to me before we had purchased everything he needs for school.

Charlie turned over and went to sleep and I was awake all night trying to decide what I should do. I would love having Charlie homeschooling but is that the best thing for Charlie at this time?

I don’t think so and I don’t think it’s the best thing for me or even for our family. But how can I wake Charlie up tomorrow to go and get on the school but when I know it’s going to upset us both?

As a mom my heart is breaking and I don’t want to send Charlie to school with everything happening in this world but I can’t let Charlie hide inside our home as that isn’t good for Charlie.

Please say a Prayer for our family tomorrow as I get Charlie ready for school and he leaves our home. Please Pray Charlie understands why I am sending him to school and that he doesn’t hate me.

Thank you,

Glenda, Charlie and David Cates